Sorry for the lack of posts lately. I really actually don't know why I am apologizing because I don't think anyone reads this blog. I think the main reason I haven't been blogging is I have been battling with my own depression when it comes to my body. So heres what's been going on...
My stomach has definitely been expanding these past 7ish weeks. I haven't hit the 3rd trimester just yet, but my energy that was high for awhile is starting to plummet again. I've started taking naps in the afternoons, and needing some caffeine, usually in the form of a pop. My running has slowed immensely which makes me sad. Before getting pregnant, I would run between an 8-8:30 minute/mile pace. Now, I am lucky if I am running at a 10:00 minute mile pace, but its getting more toward 10:30 minutes/mile. I know I should be grateful that I am still able to run, but I miss my "speed". I have been thinking a lot lately about what its going to be like once the baby is born. I am not looking forward to not being able to excise for 6 weeks post delivery. I know I am going to desperately want to get my pre-baby body back, and not being able to exercise will be rough.
I want to start feeling more attached to my bump. I feel like I am constantly "hiding" my bump. Not just from other people, but from myself as well. I don't like to spend a lot of time looking in the mirror, and I hardly look at my bare bump, nor do I touch it much. With the exception of my 20 week bumpdate picture, the rest of them are clothed, which doesn't show my bump as well. I don't know if it is just me, but I feel like my bump looks weird. Its not cute and round like most women, I feel like it's kind of square looking. My belly button hasn't popped, which I am fine with! But it just looks so weird and wide and awkward. I think that my feelings toward my body are getting in the way of my happiness and excitement that my baby will actually be here in 13 weeks. I am going to try to be more at peace with my body and my bump these next few weeks in hopes of getting me to drum up more excitement for whats to come.
Don't get my wrong, I am so so so excited to meet this little girl that's been living inside me. But when I notice my stomach expanding, it makes me sad because I am missing my pre-pregnancy body. When in actuality, the expansion should get my more excited that she is just that much closer to being here. I am working on, but it's not easy...
She's been kicking a lot more lately which is pretty neat. There are times I can see the movement through my clothes. This weekend I have a 3D/4D ultrasound which is going to be awesome. I am so curious who she is going to look like! I hope she has my nose and Andrew's mouth :)
Tomorrow is my birthday. It sure doesn't feel like it this year. But this will be a very big year for me, this is the year that I become a mom!
Well I am starting to feel a bit overwhelmed right now about everything to come. I will try to update again soon.
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
20 Weeks
A lot of people say now that I am 20 weeks I have reached the half way point. I tend to disagree. I found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks, so I have only known I've been pregnant for 16 weeks. Plus, those first two weeks really don't count because you are not even pregnant then. So because of this, I'm not going to say I'm half way until 22 weeks.
Man pregnancy is a long process. I wish I was a dog and only had to be pregnant for 60 days. That would be awesome. Yes, I want a healthy baby, which means I will go 41 weeks if I have to. I just really don't like being pregnant!
Here are some 20 week bump pictures. Definitely starting to show more.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Do Not Underestimate the Wrath of a Pregnant Woman
Last week was a rough week. I spent an entire day waiting at home for the crib and dresser to be delivered for it to NOT be delivered. Apparently the delivery guy was running late and blah blah blah...I stopped listening to the excuses. Because frankly, it didn't matter. I was so angry that I waited home for HOURS for them to not even show up, and then I had to call them to find out WTF was going in. They still were planning on coming, but they probably wouldn't have gotten to my house until 8PM (my window was from 2-6PM). And then they would be assembling the crib and dresser for probably a good 2 hours. Having 2 strange men in my house at 10 PM at night while my husband is working out of town...um NO! I was not going to stand for that. So I rescheduled for after my Florida trip.
But oh man, dealing with this delivery company has been the death of me. Just in the set of for scheduling the delivery was a headache. I would call the company and they would say that the "tech" (aka the delivery guy) would call me that evening to set up delivery. They told me these 3 DIFFERENT DAYS! I never received a call ever, so I would call back the next day. It was SOO FRUSTRATING! So i really didn't have the highest of hopes when it came to them delivering, but when they never showed up and I had wasted an ENTIRE day, I lost it. I was so angry and then my anger turned into sadness and tears. It was a big old mess.
Two days later, I flew down to Florida to find my mom's condo in a mess. She has been having work done on it for the past 4 months due to a flood that caused her to replace her entire kitchen. The workers have been working SO SLOWLY and it's taking forever to get anything done. We hadn't been down here for a solid 2 months, plenty of time for them to finish the project. But do you think they finished? Nope. So I came here without a sink in the kitchen, without an oven/stove hooked up (it was in the living room still in the box), no countertops (because they're not in yet), a missing toilet in the bathroom, a missing sink in the bathroom, and probably a bunch of other small things that hadn't been taken care of. I was aware about the lack of counter tops before I came down here, but everything else was supposed to be taken care of!
So my anger turned into sadness again and I was a balling mess of tears. I chewed out the contractor but he had every excuse in the book about why things weren't done. "I didn't know you were coming." So what!! You said it would be done by Wednesday, so I should have been fine by the time I came down Thursday. He got some workers to come on the next 2 days so I at least had a kitchen sink and the oven hooked up. But still, the condo is a mess, its in complete disarray, and its sooo dirty from all the work being done. The work is going to start back up tomorrow, but lucky for me, I leave tomorrow. It's just been such a headache!
But oh man, dealing with this delivery company has been the death of me. Just in the set of for scheduling the delivery was a headache. I would call the company and they would say that the "tech" (aka the delivery guy) would call me that evening to set up delivery. They told me these 3 DIFFERENT DAYS! I never received a call ever, so I would call back the next day. It was SOO FRUSTRATING! So i really didn't have the highest of hopes when it came to them delivering, but when they never showed up and I had wasted an ENTIRE day, I lost it. I was so angry and then my anger turned into sadness and tears. It was a big old mess.
Two days later, I flew down to Florida to find my mom's condo in a mess. She has been having work done on it for the past 4 months due to a flood that caused her to replace her entire kitchen. The workers have been working SO SLOWLY and it's taking forever to get anything done. We hadn't been down here for a solid 2 months, plenty of time for them to finish the project. But do you think they finished? Nope. So I came here without a sink in the kitchen, without an oven/stove hooked up (it was in the living room still in the box), no countertops (because they're not in yet), a missing toilet in the bathroom, a missing sink in the bathroom, and probably a bunch of other small things that hadn't been taken care of. I was aware about the lack of counter tops before I came down here, but everything else was supposed to be taken care of!
So my anger turned into sadness again and I was a balling mess of tears. I chewed out the contractor but he had every excuse in the book about why things weren't done. "I didn't know you were coming." So what!! You said it would be done by Wednesday, so I should have been fine by the time I came down Thursday. He got some workers to come on the next 2 days so I at least had a kitchen sink and the oven hooked up. But still, the condo is a mess, its in complete disarray, and its sooo dirty from all the work being done. The work is going to start back up tomorrow, but lucky for me, I leave tomorrow. It's just been such a headache!
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Pregnancy Nose!
I have heard that when you are pregnant your sense of smell increases. I hadn't really noticed any change in my smelling until the other night.
Andrew and I let Kody out right before we were going to bed. Kody came back inside, and Andrew decided to give him a treat because he had been such a good boy while we were painting all weekend long. Usually when we give Kody a treat we make him do something like sit, shake, or speak before we give it to him. I was just standing next to them in the kitchen watching when suddenly...I smelled it!
I said to Andrew "Woah, it smells like straight up poop in here!"
Andrew just looked and me like I was nuts, thinking maybe Kody had some post-poo gas or something.
But I said again "Seriously, it smells like a big pile of poop, don't you smell it?!"
Andrew replied, "Um, not really."
Luckily, even though Andrew thought I was nuts, he started looking around at the floor with me. And lo-and-behold, there was a little poo nugget on kitchen floor, just a few inches from my foot!
Andrew then told me that he thought Kody had been walking funny when he came in from being let outside. Sometimes Kody get's poo-dangles and we have to help him out. Gross, I know! Sorry! I am just so thankful for my intense sense of smell! Had I not smelled it, I most definitely would have stepped in it!
Don't worry, Andrew quickly cleaned up the nugget and the kitchen floor. I've told Andrew he better get used to this because once baby comes, he will be getting very familiar with poopy diapers! I have come up with system, that when Andrew, Baby and I are together, I will take care of input (breast feeding) and Andrew can take care of the output. But I've told him, if he should decide to breastfeed at any point, we can always switch our roles! Haha, we will see how that goes once baby arrives! :-P
Andrew and I let Kody out right before we were going to bed. Kody came back inside, and Andrew decided to give him a treat because he had been such a good boy while we were painting all weekend long. Usually when we give Kody a treat we make him do something like sit, shake, or speak before we give it to him. I was just standing next to them in the kitchen watching when suddenly...I smelled it!
I said to Andrew "Woah, it smells like straight up poop in here!"
Andrew just looked and me like I was nuts, thinking maybe Kody had some post-poo gas or something.
But I said again "Seriously, it smells like a big pile of poop, don't you smell it?!"
Andrew replied, "Um, not really."
Luckily, even though Andrew thought I was nuts, he started looking around at the floor with me. And lo-and-behold, there was a little poo nugget on kitchen floor, just a few inches from my foot!
Andrew then told me that he thought Kody had been walking funny when he came in from being let outside. Sometimes Kody get's poo-dangles and we have to help him out. Gross, I know! Sorry! I am just so thankful for my intense sense of smell! Had I not smelled it, I most definitely would have stepped in it!
Don't worry, Andrew quickly cleaned up the nugget and the kitchen floor. I've told Andrew he better get used to this because once baby comes, he will be getting very familiar with poopy diapers! I have come up with system, that when Andrew, Baby and I are together, I will take care of input (breast feeding) and Andrew can take care of the output. But I've told him, if he should decide to breastfeed at any point, we can always switch our roles! Haha, we will see how that goes once baby arrives! :-P
Monday, April 13, 2015
Bumpie Picture Dump and More!
I know I've been lacking on posting my Bumpdate pics lately so here are weeks 16 through 19.
Definitely popping out more now. I just noticed yesterday that my belly button is starting to look weird. It's still an innie! But it's not as deep as it usually is, so that's kind of weird.
This weekend Andrew and I painted the nursery. It actually turned out really well! We have to do some touching up at some point but all in all I am really happy with how it turned out!
We have a wall decal we still have to put up on the grey wall or walls (haven't decided if it will just go on 1 wall or turn the corner by going on 2). I'm super excited for it!
Then today we had baby's anatomy scan ultrasound. It was awesome! She is developing right on schedule and everything was looking good and healthy. She has super long legs! I'm sure she will be just like me, the super tall awkward girl growing up. There was a point where we could she her actually kick me with one of her legs. Andrew was like "Woah did you feel that?!" But no, I can't really feel her just yet. My placenta is anterior which could be part of the reason. I should hopefully start feeling her a bit more in the upcoming weeks.
She was laying folded in half for most of the time, she's looks very flexible! So in order to get a better look at her, the tech made me walk a couple laps around the office to get her to move around more. Here are some pictures from today :)
Little feet!
This is just a glimpse of one of her long legs!
I think she looks pretty cute from the side! We saw her face from the front and she yawned which was super cute! Unfortunately we didn't get a picture of it!
All in all, today was a good day. I wish I had more ultrasounds coming up, seeing the baby makes it so much more real!
Monday, April 6, 2015
Baby update
I know it's been awhile since I have posted. I find it hard to post for every little thing, so this post will be an all inclusive overview of the past few weeks.
Right before we left for Aspen, we ordered the crib and dresser with changing table topper. I got a call while we were in Aspen that the furniture is in! That really surprised me because they said it would be 10-14 days, when it was more like 5. The delivery company will hopefully be contacting me soon so I can set up delivery. Hopefully we can get the furniture this week! This past weekend Andrew took apart the bed we had in the nursery, and we moved all of it to the basement so the room is basically empty. We still need to paint the nursery, but have been waiting until its been warmer outside so we can keep the windows open and ventilated while we paint. Maybe next weekend?
The colors that we have decided on for the nursery are grey and baby pink. I think we are going to do 2 grey walls, and 2 pink walls. I just had a thought though! We were going to do grey-pink-grey-pink around the room, but what if we did grey-grey-pink-pink? Ahh I can't decide! One thing I know for sure, is we are going to have this decal on the wall that the crib will be on, which will most likely be a grey wall.
I've been doing tons and tons of research on various baby things the past few weeks. Baby monitors, swings, etc. There is so much to do and research. We still have 22 weeks before D day, but I don't feel like there is that much time. I obviously want to get my registries complete before I have a baby shower, so that will cut back several weeks. Then again, who knows if I will even have a baby shower...
We have also already gotten our car seat/stroller combo. Haven't opened the box yet, but I am pretty excited about it!
I had my 18 week appointment today. I feel like every doctor's appointment is so anti-climatic. The only fun part is hearing the babies heart beat. Heart Rate was 150 bpm, good and healthy! Next week I have my anatomy scan ultrasound which I am super excited for! I hope all goes well, I guess it is a bit nerve wrecking to know they could find something wrong. But I am trying to focus more on the being able to see my little baby. Even though it is my 3rd ultrasound, it will be the first time I actually get to see her features. The past 2 ultrasounds I couldn't really make out anything.
Here are my most recent bumpdate pictures. Definitely starting to show more, but I still don't look pregnant, just fluffy :-/
I've been struggling a lot lately with weight gain an body image. I would go more into it right now, but I feel like I have made this post long enough. More to come on that soon.
Right before we left for Aspen, we ordered the crib and dresser with changing table topper. I got a call while we were in Aspen that the furniture is in! That really surprised me because they said it would be 10-14 days, when it was more like 5. The delivery company will hopefully be contacting me soon so I can set up delivery. Hopefully we can get the furniture this week! This past weekend Andrew took apart the bed we had in the nursery, and we moved all of it to the basement so the room is basically empty. We still need to paint the nursery, but have been waiting until its been warmer outside so we can keep the windows open and ventilated while we paint. Maybe next weekend?
The colors that we have decided on for the nursery are grey and baby pink. I think we are going to do 2 grey walls, and 2 pink walls. I just had a thought though! We were going to do grey-pink-grey-pink around the room, but what if we did grey-grey-pink-pink? Ahh I can't decide! One thing I know for sure, is we are going to have this decal on the wall that the crib will be on, which will most likely be a grey wall.
The crib/dresser we ordered is called "slate" which basically looks like a black, so it will be very similar to this photo. We won't have the decal turning on the wall like the photo above because that wall it would be turning onto is pretty much where the door is to the room. I'm super excited for this! I think it will be so cute once the room is all put together.
We have also already gotten our car seat/stroller combo. Haven't opened the box yet, but I am pretty excited about it!
I had my 18 week appointment today. I feel like every doctor's appointment is so anti-climatic. The only fun part is hearing the babies heart beat. Heart Rate was 150 bpm, good and healthy! Next week I have my anatomy scan ultrasound which I am super excited for! I hope all goes well, I guess it is a bit nerve wrecking to know they could find something wrong. But I am trying to focus more on the being able to see my little baby. Even though it is my 3rd ultrasound, it will be the first time I actually get to see her features. The past 2 ultrasounds I couldn't really make out anything.
Here are my most recent bumpdate pictures. Definitely starting to show more, but I still don't look pregnant, just fluffy :-/
I've been struggling a lot lately with weight gain an body image. I would go more into it right now, but I feel like I have made this post long enough. More to come on that soon.
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
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